the little things

I've always appreciated the little things...... But never knew how much I will miss the little things till your gone. I think about you so much and all our times together and how much time I spent with you. I am so thankful that you were in my life. and I'm sure I'll say things that I wrote already before but hey. I cant help the way I feel. and sometimes I feel if I don't write it down I'll only keep crying. so I feel when I"m writing my feelings and thoughts down. it keeps me from feeling I need someone to talk to. I know people offer a ear to listen but most of the time who are we kidding no one really has time to sit and hear how you feel. they have their own feelings. and problems. so for me this is my own therapy. Honey I miss you. I miss your phone calls. you always would think it was funny why I saved all your msgs. you asked why you save them? I told you so I could always hear your voice. I only was able to save a few though cause I lost one of my other phones. I'm thankful I have two left. but at the same time. no matter how many times I hear them. Its not the same. I love hearing your voice though. but I want more. I want to touch your face. I remember you told me that you liked no matter how much you fought with me. I wouldn't let you stay mad. I would put my hand on your face and touch your ear. and that calmed you down. and you never understood why.. just knew the minute my hand was on your face you weren't mad at me anymore.
I remember when we would just watch TV together all the shows we watched together. I remember one time I was sleep and you were watching TV by your self and I woke up and started watching what you were and you didn't know I was awake and I laughed and you turned around and said HONEY! I didn't know you were awake. and you smiled so big, and you said thanks honey I said what? you said I miss your laugh. I don't like watching TV by myself and I like watching TV with you cause we can laugh together at the TV. and sometimes you were so happy you would just lean over and hug me and start crying. I miss your hugs. and I miss how much you loved me. you always told me you loved me. always. you always made sure to tell me how much you appreciate me and always told me I know I'm not easy to live with. thats the little things I miss.. the little things that meant so much to me. the little things that I'll never forget. and I love you so much for all the little things that left such a big impression on my heart.